10.09.2025 the night been awful, but at least i'm not the one to blame. First huge amounts of drones then around 5am missiles, they were very loud when passing my city. Right now on history lesson, i dont listen much on classes because it's better for me to remember by reading rather than listening. Want to try skateboarding one day, i have a penny board but it's pretty small and my ballance suck, so i just hope that skateboard since they are bigger they would be easier to learn. And haha, just as i was finishing writing this an air raid alarm started yelling, uh well, typical day.. i know some people would be thrilled to skip school like i do, but it's suck, in 2022 on the day my school finally had to go offline after 2 years of quarantine but ooh well the full-scale war started. I feel very hatefull right now. But i understand everyone got their lives, their stuff they focused on. I am mad at people who CAN do something but they just too guided by selfish reasons and profit. I wanna also clear something up. I am not against all russian, i don't believe in any absolutes like: "they commited a crime and would do it again"(people can change), "there are no choice"(there always a choice, even if not pretty or ethical/moral one, still a choice), "every "specific group type", are like this"(no they are not, everyone is different) etc. The evil always get a top spot for everyone to see, it's titillating, it's controversial, it's addictive. But there good, it's just doestn't got illuminated as much. Hatred is the drug society is addicted to for years and years so it gained it's own language, the one that easy to remember, the one that speaks the loudest, the one that easier to process. Hatred doesn't require thinking and empathazing, but just one primary emotion. It's easier to say something bad, rather than be kind, because many of us lead by disgusting social concepts of "beauty", "smart", "worthy", "good", "bad" etc.
08.09.2025 the night(luckily) been great actually, though in the morning i thought it was sunday and not monday, but overall it been good. Did some actually major changes in index.html, changed it completely with exception of color. And also the name changed from "totallydinofan" to "smeertii".
07.09.2025 been a shitty night, just like for anyone in my contry. haven't sleept untill 4 in the morning or something like that, then it become relatively safe to go out of "shelter"(technically it just half-basement where all the pipes are) and go up to our apartment. Added 10 pieces of the most recent art to my "garbagecan". Before that i was suffering with layout for my spacehey cus i wanted to add a loading screen to a layout made by someone else, so i had a hard time figuring out how to do it but i did it! A good thing that i looked up to in the morning was nuggets with juice(amazing stuff). Decided to re-read the "suicide boy" manga that i read before when i was 12-13(somewhere around there).
05.09.2025 while i'm writing this there currently a drone attack at the region i live but that fine. So i did some big updates, added yet another page but now with collection of bunch graphics stuff, spent most of my time after school copy and pasting the stuff on that page with url's and stuff, not on all so it's always will be work in progress.
04.09.2025 only few days since the start of school and i already feel like falling apart and failing, i not a fan of math's despite wanting to learn it one day just like a fun skill, but i want to learn at my pace without stressing and getting left behind, but, of course, i understand that many schools just cannot support such students like me, so i'll focus on what i can do at the moment and how i can improve in them. i added a page "notesoabm" there i will post my writing, mostly in ukrainian since it's my native and i'm most comfortable using it. maybe i'll add a guestbook one day
01.09.2025 Today was hella stressful, but i added tamanotchi on my front page :3
31.08.2025 Tomorrow is the start of school, can't say i very happy but at least i'm not gonna be bored all the time. Doing some changes in style of site, decided i want it look darker. My head currently hurts a lot, most likely due to lack of sleep in past few days. Constant past night attacks at my sity didn't let me get much sleep and i couldn't sleep during the day. UPD: uploaded first news to newsletter, Spicomellus provoked quite a discussion on r/dinosaurs. UPD2: this is very late for me, especially since i have to get up very early, but i have made another page, "garbagecan" where i would put my artwork and writing(maybe).
30.08.2025 Today was not the best day but after so long i managed to at least organize my code, so now i can a bit easier navigate though it.
13.08.2025 Today just through this morning i majorly updated the site. It still doesn't look as good as i would like it to be and my thoughts on desing are constantly changing, but i'll try make something out of it.